When you’re as blind as me, you tend to not feel human without the aid of corrective lenses. Before I knew exactly how blind I was, it was a daily struggle to make eye contact with people. It was unclear to me (pun intended) at the time, that because I couldn’t really SEE anyone, I didn’t want them to see me. It’s unsettling when people have direct access to your soul-window, and you have no access to theirs. So, I looked away.
Then I go to the eye doctor, get contacts, and BAM! There are leaves, and clouds, and eyes. Eyes everywhere. And for some reason, I wanted to look into all of them.
Many of us experience spiritual blindness as well. And we like it that way. Imagine if we were to behold the true weight of our shortcomings. We would get crushed by conviction.
Jeremiah 16:10 ESV
“And when you tell this people all these words, and they say to you, ‘Why has the Lord pronounced all this great evil against us? What is our iniquity? What is the sin that we have committed against the Lord our God?'”
All over the Bible people are asking, (the Israelites especially) “what did WE do against you? Surely it wasn’t that bad.”
It is that bad. Anything other than perfection is complete and utter evil. The opposite of good is evil, so if it’s not good, it’s evil. For more on that click HERE.
I desperately want my prayer to be “Lord, open my eyes. Show me what’s in my heart.” But I’m deathly afraid of what that would mean. Of what I would see. Of what He would convict me of.
So, as of right now. That’s not my prayer. It’s a prayer that the Holy Spirit inside of me will have to ask for, as I don’t possess the strength yet.
Right now, my prayer is simply, “Lord, give me the strength to ask for my eyes to be opened.”